Holy Butts guys.
So like I've decided to brave my family and join them on our family visit to Michigan to see grandparents and extended family. Given my past relationship with my dad this isn't something i take lightly. But I feel God is leading me to go there. He can do amazing things when we trust, so I am trusting him. Hopefully I'll be an example of peace and maturity or somethin' like that. By God's grace. e.e
But since that's happening the week of the 29th of June. I am leaving work early. My last day is two Fridays from now; the 26th. So I have time to move out of this mountainous small town. Nice place for some, but it's been a place of trial and loss and isolation for me. SO GOOD RIDENS.
met some good people here. Cried a lot. Got some parental care and affection when I wasn't bombarded with work. God definitely has shown me his love and his individual care. Aaron surprised me a few times with visits. Even thinking about that makes me smile a lot xD
Work has been hell tho. I'm very glad to be so close to done. I still love the general job concept, however, we've lost a lot of employees for one reason or another. So I'm practically running the place half the time. Hopefully today will be my last night closing by myself. ox (And yeah so much for those nice morning shifts. Our new manager doesn't know me at all.)
I'm getting tired of doing man-work and everything else that needs be done. My claws have been broken (I file my nails like the miapet's, and paint them different colors) so i feel declawed! Its very much like loosing bits of me piece by piece.
I hate t-shirts but I have to wear them for ze work policy. And its so hot right now it's kinda killer Dx I'm always covered in a few layers of grime and paint stains. All the clothes I wear have paint stains. :I
Yeah.. I miss being a girl. I'm not even that girly. I just miss being me I guess. Work really drains that out of ya.
I'll need to get a job for the semester (if I even get to go back to school or find a place to live hahahaha), so i may do weekends and transfer to a store close to the university. But still... noooot a big fan of that kind of environment. Had a few runs with some creepers and felt emotionally violated in my first months on the job (to which, Aaron has been wonderfully up in arms and growly for my sake). I've learned how to face those things, but still. I'd like to... ya know. Like
my job and feel a little more safe.
Also I am trying to gain weight. I lost 15 pounds while here. I'm an averaged weighted person, tall, and a decent metabolism. So this has really skinnied me up. I'm not a fan of being skinny. So I'm trying to build a little muscle and a little fat lol
So now, "Ah werk out". And actually try not to skip meals (yay depression and emotions).
Welp I didn't mean to write that much...
Yep. Work has taken over everything these past weeks. But 10 more days e.e I gotta keep telling myself only 10 more days... and 9 tomorrow, 8 the next day. 7 more actual work days though. i have some days off. Like tomorrow and the next day! MAYBE I'LL ACTUALLY DRAW. And work on some owed art/commission work I've accumulated/want to do.
Thanks for reading if you read. Kinda lonely over here. Really looking forward to getting this all done. But I survived the 5 or so months here. So praise God for that! \o/
God Bless, bros.